Sad but true..!

Yes..I am back..after long..not because I never wanted to write and share but because I never felt the need for it..never really thought I could ever say something out in this big, bad world..

What brings me back again is the same sad reason that brought me to blogging years ago..I wish there were better reasons now..but I guess it’s a part of me now..having the same old cycle repeat like a déjà vu.. yet I could do nothing but be helpless like every time..sad but true..

I chose to blog because I know someone will at least read this and listen to my part of the story as well unlike the ones who I wished to say a lot to but never had the time, patience, or whatever it takes to listen to me..Its like shouting out loud in this whole big world where you know no one would get back to you and really make you feel weird or awkward or even worse..

Same sad story..that happened before..happens again..the only difference being the earlier one was over a couple of years and this one being over a couple of months..any other difference that I can see..NOT REALLY!

May be because I happen to be with the similar kind of people or may be I think they are similar..whatever..

Not that its been a sad story all while long..the sad part being the way  it ended..when it boils down to  a fight within you..a fight between the brain and the heart..a fight  between the ego and the self-respect..a fight between the wrong and the right..a fight between to hold on or let go..

I always heard that there’s a fine line between ego and self-respect..but I really wonder how many of us even know about it..how many of us really know the difference between anger and insult..how many of us really know what can be forgiven and what can not be..

It’s a sad phase of life..when you go through a complete whirlpool of emotions and are all alone in this world..left with no one to share it with..its a vacuum inside that eats you to the core..its an emptiness inside that kills you..to the point of agony..

I wonder where to go from here..what to do and what not to..its the puzzle time again where I don’t know what would fit in where and what would the ultimate picture look like..I give up today..only with a hope of rising up tomorrow and facing it again..be stronger and better..all by myself..